Biography Z l

And, with disgust, reading my life, I tremble and curse, and complain bitterly, and I pour tears bitterly, but I do not wash off the sad lines. In the last line, I would only change it, - instead of the "sorrowful lines ..." I would put "lines of shameful ones." Under this impression, I wrote the following in my diary: January 6, G. usually regret that the personality does not hold memories after death.

What a blessing that this is not! What a torment would be if I remembered in this life everything bad, painful for my conscience that I had committed in a previous life! And if you remember the good, then we must remember everything bad. Yes, great happiness is the destruction of memories; You could not live joyfully with him. Now, with the destruction of memories, we come to life with a pure, white page on which you can write good and bad again.

” True, not all my life was so terribly bad - this was only the summer period of her; The truth is that even during this period my life was not a continuous evil that it seemed to me during the illness, and that during this period impulses were awakened in me, although not longly continued and soon drowned out by unnecessary passions. But still, this work of my thoughts, especially during illness, clearly showed me that my biography, as biographies usually write, with silence about all the nastiness and crime of my life, would be a lie, and that if you write a biography, then you need to write all the real truth.

Only such a biography, no matter how embarrassing it will write it, can have a real and fruitful interest for readers. Remembering this way my life, that is,, finally, the fourth, summer period in which I now live and in which I hope to die, and from the point of view of which I see the whole meaning of the past life, and which I would not want to change anything, except in those habits of evil that I have learned in the past periods.

Such a story of the life of all these four periods, completely true, I would like to write if God gives me strength and life. I think that such a biography I wrote, even with great shortcomings, will be more useful for people than the whole artistic chatter, which is filled with my 12 volumes of essays and to which people of our time attribute the meaning that they have not deserved.

Now I want to do it. I will first tell the first, joyful period of childhood, which is especially attracting me; Then, no matter how embarrassed it will be, I’ll tell you without concealing anything, and terrible 20 years of the subsequent period. Then the third period, which can be less interesting, and, finally, the last period - my awakening to the truth, which gave me the highest good of life and joyful calm in view of the approaching death.

In order not to repeat myself in the description of childhood, I redistributed my scripture under this title and regretted that I wrote this: so bad, literary, insincerely written. In particular, I did not like the last two parts now, “adolescence” and “youth”, in which, in addition to the awkward mixing of truth with fiction, there is also insincerity, the desire to expose as good and important what I did not consider good and important, my democratic direction.

I hope that what I will write now will be better - the main thing is more useful than other people. Insurance for the publication of Stasyulevich "Russian Library", c. Tolstoy, prohibited in Russia. The publication of the "free word." For the first time appeared in the collection of I. Gorbunov-Posadov "Russian mothers." Tolstoy to his relatives and acquaintances.

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